5 weeks

MOOD: Cranky >:(

I must have yawned about 30 times today. So tired. I know they say fatigue is a early pregnancy symptom but I was thinking more like in the 5th or 6th week? Just better get used to it I guess. It’s hard though. I go to bed early to get some sleep but I have so many things flying around in my head that I don’t normally get to sleep until late and even when I do sleep, it’s very restless. I’m not sure if that’s related to the pregnancy or just my overactive mind going bananas thinking about what we do we need to buy? What if something happens? Am I eating the right things? Is there anything I should/shouldn’t be doing?

I know it’s probably normal to think the worst at some stage but I really want this baby and I don’t think I’m an emotionally strong enough person to handle it if anything were to happen. I don’t have any family close by to support me either. My neighbours are great but I really wouldn’t want to burden them with it when it’s really family that I should be with. Mum is only a 4 hour drive away and I don’t think she’d hesitate to drive here. I like to think so.

Anyway, enough of the morbid stuff… The Doctors appointment was this afternoon at 3:20pm. Of the hundreds of Doctors in this town, I had to call about 10 before I could get an appointment with a lady doctor! And even then it’s a good 20 minute drive to get there. I couldn’t get in to my normal doctor (which is also a lady just next door to where I work) but I plan on seeing her for my entire pregnancy if I can! She’s great. And she’s a Mother three times over so who better to talk to about this stuff? It’s not that I don’t trust male Doctors, I do, but I would rather deal with someone who has been through it THEMSELVES (not supervised or delivered) and can tell me what to expect.

Anyway the Doctor I chose because my normal one wasn't available was a total bitch. She wasn't warm & friendly at all like most other Doctors. She said my name, I went into the room, no "How are you?", nothing! She just sat down, I sat down and she said "Are you a smoker?" "Umm.. no?" "Are you on contraceptive?" "No." "How can I help you?" I was gobsmacked! And I could of smacked her gob too. She was sooo unfriendly that when we left I burst out crying. HAHAHA! I'm so not a crier. DAMN YOU HORMONES! So, I told her that I've done 4 HPT's and all were positive and that I'm just here for confirmation. She says nothing, taps away on her computer and asks "So have you missed a period?" "Yes?", puts a piece of paper in her printer, hands it to me and says the results will take 24 hours so make another appointment with me for Wednesday. Not going to happen lady! I wanted a Doctor who was even remotely interested in us and would talk to us about becoming new parents, blah blah blah but nope. We were in and out in about 2 minutes.

After I got the blood test done, I asked the girl at the counter if they could change the doctor on the form (lol.. it was worth a shot!) but of course they said no but all I had to do was get my normal doctor to phone the lab and ask for the results! I'll be doing that first thing tomorrow morning. I vow never to return to that Medical Centre again and I defintely won't be recommending it to anyone.

On another note, It’s a shame we miss out on being able to use our Private Health Insurance for this bub. We fall one month short of the 12 month waiting period and I’m not too sure how relaxed they are about that. Can’t hurt to ask though. I was planning on having a baby at the Mater Hospital but without our PHI, that’d be out of the question as we’d be looking at thousands of dollars. I have heard a few bad stories about the Base Hospital here which makes me kind of hesitant to deliver there but I really don’t have much choice otherwise.

My symptoms today are much like my last post except I think I'm heaps more tired. Going to try and get an early night tonight.

Love, hugs & babydust! :)