9 weeks 5 days

We had a bit of a scare today.

While we were shopping this morning I felt a small "pop" down there so went to the nearest loo to find quite a bit of pink/red blood. My heart completely sank as I immediately thought the worst but as it wasn't accompanied by any clotting, cramping or other pain, I wasn't overly upset but decided to go up the hospital to get it checked out anyway.

The doctor took my OBs (all normal) and used a small doppler to try and find a heartbeat but was unsuccessful. He said not to panic as the doppler was small and so was the baby so finding a heartbeat may prove difficult. Hubby later told me that he was listening as hard as he could for anything that sounded anything like a heartbeat. He's so worried. :(

I stayed as calm as I could be because I knew hubby was quite upset and I didn't want to make him feel more upset. The doctor said it could be any number of things from breakthrough bleeding (AF would have been due last Wednesday) to the early stages of a miscarriage. While I was there, I went to the loo again and there was nothing. Not even a spot! He took a urine sample and told me not to go bungy jumping or sky-diving any time soon. Ya. Like that's gonna happen?

I'm so confused and scared and anxious and I just want to cry but I don't feel it's warranted as I don't even know if there is anything wrong. The doctor said we'd just have to wait and if it did end in miscarriage, not to blame myself as this happens all the time. Easier said than done. Was I not meant to lift that parcel earlier in the week? Should I not have eaten all those dried apricots that gave me terrible pains in the stomach?

So now we play the waiting game. I know there are so many women that have gone through this exact same situation and they're probably thinking "Oh great, another overreacting prego!" but I just wanted to be safe, rather than sorry.

Please send us sticky vibes so our little bub will be with us for a long while yet.