It would be my Nan's 83rd birthday today if she were still alive. She passed away on the 28th December 2003, oddly enough, the same day I would have been due to have the baby if things were to go as planned. Instead, I lost the baby the day before her birthday. We made a trip out to her grave site this morning and placed some flowers by her headstone. I don't really believe she is there, only in body. It's good to have somewhere to go though, just to say hello.
It sounds silly but I like to think the baby is with Nan (even though I know it's not really a baby yet). I'm hoping she'll look after them for me as I'm going to need them back soon. I've spoken to Keith about TTC again and I think I want to wait until at least June/July this time, just to make sure my body is fully healed from my operation and ready for another pregnancy (not that we can ever know that for sure).
Even though the little one was only with us for such a short time, it's going to take a long time to recover from losing them. I never knew just what to say to other women who had lost a baby (at any gestation) and now that I've been there myself, I know there is nothing you can say. You just need to let them know that you are there for them. I've had so many wonderful messages from so many wonderful friends. I just want them to know I really appreciate it.
It sounds silly but I like to think the baby is with Nan (even though I know it's not really a baby yet). I'm hoping she'll look after them for me as I'm going to need them back soon. I've spoken to Keith about TTC again and I think I want to wait until at least June/July this time, just to make sure my body is fully healed from my operation and ready for another pregnancy (not that we can ever know that for sure).
Even though the little one was only with us for such a short time, it's going to take a long time to recover from losing them. I never knew just what to say to other women who had lost a baby (at any gestation) and now that I've been there myself, I know there is nothing you can say. You just need to let them know that you are there for them. I've had so many wonderful messages from so many wonderful friends. I just want them to know I really appreciate it.
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