30 weeks

I found out yesterday that my parents (Mum & Stepdad) have seperated which breaks my heart as I was pretty close to my Stepdad and thought of him as my Dad (my real dad is still alive but don't see him very often). It was his decision to leave and Mum seems to be taking it OK but I can't help but think about what she's going to do now without him. She has my little brother to look out for her but he's 17 now and probably won't be at home for much longer. I've been having a bit of a cry on and off all day since I found out (not to Mum though) so I blame pregnancy hormones for that.

I know Mum's going to be alright on her own as she's done it before but I can't forgive him for what he's done. Just knowing I'll never see him again makes it so much harder. I'm so angry at him yet so upset at the same time. Poor Bubs is not going to know what's going on with me. I think he can sense something though as he's been very quiet all afternoon and it's normally very active.

On a lighter note, I can't believe we're at 30 weeks already. Only 10 more to go. Eep! I have the stuff for my labour bag ready to be packed into the suitcase but it just hasn't made it there yet. I'm still pretty convinced I'm going to go early but they say majority of first timers go later rather than earlier. Maybe I'll be in the minority? I think my mind is set this way because I've been convinced Bubs is bigger than he should be. Time will tell I guess. As long as he holds out for at LEAST another 5 or 6 weeks, I'll be happy.